It's clear in my head

Mon, 28 Nov 2005 05:45:15 GMT

&&another reminder.

add my other journal.

fatalatractionn

Mon, 07 Nov 2005 00:42:13 GMT

add it assholes.

fatalatractionn

Thu, 03 Nov 2005 05:52:56 GMT

add my new livejournal.

fatalatractionn

k, thnx byee.

dude, i have to go to fucking SWAT.

Tue, 01 Nov 2005 20:50:54 GMT

i finally had a fun hallloween after a while.

oooo, what a gecko.

at chris's house for a while.
then decided to go out to chris's street, put on music and dance.

from there, alley anna and i went to michael && got larissa.
then, larissa alley and i met back up with people again.
we then went to some kids house accept only managed to make it out of our cars and ended up dancing on the sidewalk for an hour or so.

dancing on the car seemed to be these twos favorite thing to do.

danced soo much on the sidewalk and rapped to every song that came on.
decided then to go back to michael &&roberts.

so, the end of my night topped everything off like a cherry on a sundae.
driving home with alley talking and singing to circa.
complete and total calm down for the boys issues we were discussing.
i sware, im giving up.
not really though.
just, maybe i should move onto someone else.

Sat, 22 Oct 2005 13:54:05 GMT

ya, so im moving to Newbury Park.
im totally tight, right?
noooottttttttt.

Thu, 29 Sep 2005 08:03:33 GMT

THIS IS MY PICTURE, PLEASE DONT EVERYONE STEAL IT &FEEL A NEED TO USE IT EVERYWHERE ON THE INTERNET.

Bob Sanchez,
i cant believe you are gone.
i love you soo incredibly much.
im going to miss you so much in 6th period, or drinking on the weekends at xavier's house, or smoking hookah in your backyard, or being chased around your pool by your dog and swimming in your boxers, or bj's sharing pizza, playing hide-n-seek in your front yard, shrooms, everything Bob.
i miss you so much and i dont know what to do.
i want you back.
i hope youre happy where ever you are. i want you to be living life there like you were here. kickin it and drinkin beer and doing whatever.
i love you with all my heart and wish you were here with me right now.
i just know that you went out as the same person you were here.
one of the most amazing people i have ever met in my life.
i just wish this wasnt you that this had to happen to.
i love you Bob.
RIP love.

Mon, 05 Sep 2005 07:11:05 GMT

0HHH &HAPPY MOTHER FUCKING BIRTHDAY SARAH!!!!! I LOVE YOUUUUUU.♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

wait till you see my dick. ima beat that pussy up.

Thu, 23 Jun 2005 05:19:01 GMT

whats with everyone getting their permits now. honestly.

JUST WAIT MOTHER FUCKERS.

WAIT TILL LIL SAMI &I GET OUR PERMITS.
WATCH THE ROAD.
WE'LL OWN IT.

thank god schools over.
now i dont have to lie about going.

hello summer.
&*********.
yay, not.

good one i hope.

people call me.
lots of people i wanna see this summer.
good shit.

Mon, 16 May 2005 22:56:52 GMT

i cant stop listening to this song.
mmmmmmm, its my favorite.

i love Heather.
really, i do.
we're wayyy chill because we sit around like lazy mother fuckers all day and do nothing but watch tv, eat, and talk shit to Brandon.
but then of course, when it comes down to it, rush to get ready because we're going out.

i can officially say that i have been to Pride Rock.
the view, wow. can you say beautiful?

i need to not fuck up my feet on Pride Rock.
i also need to wear better shoes when i have a feeling that im going to need them.
Cameron needs to not fall and eat shit on the rocks as well.
bugs need to die. honestly.
hahaha. the one in Heather's hair.hahahaha.

"Don't be disrespectful, get in my car."

i need weed, like now.
i realize how i love nature and how much i love driving through box canyon and shit.
i love my weekends now.&the people i spend them with.

yet alot of things otherwise suck.
i hate how something i should be sooo afraid of, doesnt even bother me.
thats my new fear. not being afaid of something i should be terrified of.
ew, i cant believe i feel this way.

helpppp!

Mon, 02 May 2005 04:29:54 GMT

my friends are putting on a show at the cobalt for a friend that passed away last week. they have a few bands playing but they need more. All the profit is going to his parents cause they cant really afford the funeral. If you are in a band and are interested message me please! They are kinda looking for hardcore or hard bands to play that draw. They are going to try to get this show on the 18th of may, thats his birthday....

SO LET ME KNOW!!!!

repost this if you knew josh please. we really need all the help we can get.

Thu, 21 Apr 2005 04:42:16 GMT

I havent felt this way in such a long time.
Thank you.<3

Mon, 14 Feb 2005 08:22:15 GMT

ALRIGHT FOR THE FUCKIGN RECORD.

people need to shut the fuck up.

stop talking your fucking shit.
im at the end of my fucking line with all you fucking pathetic low lifes that have nothing else better to do than make up fucking rumors about me and my sister to make yourselves feel better.

you fucking wish you were us.
so get over your faggot selves and shut the fuck up.

im done with this.
im done with fucking all of you.

one more thing i hear and im gonna fucking flip.

fuck you bitches that talk your shit.
FUCK YOUR LIVES.

WAD UP CALABASAS!

enough said.

Fri, 04 Feb 2005 05:17:10 GMT

the OC was AMAZING.

I'm so excited for next weeks.

Sun, 23 Jan 2005 21:29:22 GMT

mhmmmmmm.

it's my birthday.

wow.
ELISE- thank you sooo much for what you gave me.
i love you.
we REALLY need to chill sometime SOON.
i really do miss you.
thank you for caring soo much.<3333333

Xfallinxxstar (9:58:32 PM): HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZOE!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!XOXOXOXOXOXO
a lost causee (9:58:52 PM): o god do i love you.<3

and of course taryn for calling me from her way back from big bear.

AND TO EVERYONE ELSE THAT CALLED ME OR SAID ANYHTING AT ALL!!!!

Tue, 18 Jan 2005 22:34:22 GMT

mmmmm ya.
new screen name.

a lost causee.
<3

Sat, 25 Dec 2004 22:35:07 GMT

Merry Christmas.

I hope everyone enjoyed their day.

And remember,
Its not about the gifts you get, or how much they were.
Its about the time you spend with your family.
And everything else that goes along with it.
Family will be there for you always.
Not material possesions.

Finally went through all of my Great- Grandma's things.
It was a trip.
I got all of her angel figurines.
I'm happy since my nickname for her was, "Angel."

Merry Christmas.<33

Mon, 06 Dec 2004 05:19:50 GMT

i hate how right when you start to have a certain connecton with someone they pack up and leave you all alone. all alone in 5th period. with no one to talk to about anything. especially boys and sex. no one to walk with. no one to make fun of your teacher with. even no one to be secretive in bathroom stalls with just before the bell rings.

I'M REALLY GOING TO MISS YOU LARISSA COMPTON.
hurry up and come back.<3333333

i love how my life is slowly coming back together.

thursday was awesome. thanks to 3 certain people.
chelsea
sarah h.
brittany.

shits going good.
and i LOVE spending practically my whole with THE GORDON'S.

and too much sami deprevation.
whats this world coming to?

and for the record:

NO, I DID NOT GO TO JUVI.

thank you.

&SARAH,

A MUCH NEEDED HANGING OUT IS CALLING OUR NAMES.
I FEEL WEIRD SINCE ITS BEEN THIS LONG.
I MISS YOU.
YOUR MOJO ZOZO WANTS HER SARAH.<33333

Thu, 02 Dec 2004 07:01:15 GMT

TODAY IS RAAD FUCKING SOUDANI'S BIRTHDAY.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAAD I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!

And who called him right at 12 o'clock to wish him a happy birthday???
me bitches.
he's my hero.
and a beautiful dinosaur.
<333333333

Sat, 13 Nov 2004 23:05:19 GMT

FUCKERRRS, I WISH I WAS GOING TO HOMECOMING.

DAMN.

Well, now to something thats really been bugging me lately.

This is to all my "OLD FRIENDS" and my "NEW FRIENDS" i guess you could say.

Ok. now. i probably will never stop hearing this from any of you. but seriously, no offense, SHUT UP! I'm sick of constantly hearing how i've "changed". im sorri people.

BUT I'M GROWING UP!!!! I cant help that. i dont know about any of you but i DON'T want to be stuck in the 8th grade for the rest of my life. I'm in high school. I'm maturing. I'm sorri if you can't handle that. I'm not going to be that little girl who dressed in black all the time and was best friends with a hardcore metal head girl. There's nothing wrong with that little hardcore metal head girl or anything. But that's not ME. i can't compare myself to someone like her. And I cant PRETEND to be her when i really find that's not who i really am. I'm discovering myself more and more everyday. I'm making new friends. You're just going to have to accept that. Of course I'm changing. WE ALL ARE! And don't sit there and act as if we aren't. Because that is just really fucking stupid. I really do want to make something out of my life. I'm doing it now more than ever. I would still love to be close with some of my "old friends" as people call themselves. But here's my thing:

IF YOU DONT SHOW RESPECT TOWARDS ME, SHOW EVEN AN INTEREST IN BEING MY FRIEND, OR ANYTHING ALONG THE LINES OF A "FRIENDSHIP", DON'T EXPECT TO GET THAT FROM ME IN RETURN. BECAUSE I'M NOT GOING TO PUT OUT THE EFFORT IF I WON'T GET ANY IN RETURN.

Taryn& Sarah, The "Metal Heads", or High School, aren't what changed me. As much as you want to believe those are the reasons why I've changed, then fucking believe it. I don't care what you think. But don't start making up dumb ass reasons to explain why we haven't been the best of friends to make yourself feel better. If maybe you actually took the time to talk to me and maybe see what's going on in my life, then you'd understand. I have actually been through a good amount of shit in the past 4-5 months. More happened in those months then what has happened in the past 3 years before that. So don't point fingers before you know the truth. And from what happened, my whole view on things has expanded. I view things now in such a different way then I ever have. I LOVE the way I view them now then I ever have.

Apart of life is accepting changes in yourself and the people around you willingly. I haven't gotten any of that from my "OLD FRIENDS." So I gave up on you. And sometimes you people wonder why shit happens. You're completely oblivious to what's going on around you. Just like 8th grade. So instead of being like the rest of you, I'm going to grow up. I don't care if you have a problem with it either. I'm not going to be like the rest of you. I'm in High School now. Not Middle School anymore.

&hearts;

Fri, 01 Oct 2004 23:19:40 GMT

ok.

this is officially gonna be FRIENDS ONLY.

comment if you wanna be kept.
♥

Tue, 28 Sep 2004 00:30:07 GMT

CSB FOR LYPHE YO.

word up to my CSB homies.

Tue, 21 Sep 2004 04:37:20 GMT

i know you dont believe me.

but i really do love you.

i always have and always will.

ive always wanted to be with you.

i miss the days when you're gone and not around.

i know i told you this just a night or so ago.

and i hope you believe me cuz i meant every word i said.

call it love, call it strong feelings but i dunno.

theres something abotu the number 2.

you jsut dont understand.

well im glad i told you how i feel.

i feel sooooooo much better about this.

well sorri fi i came on too strong.

but its something you just needed to know.

♥

Mon, 20 Sep 2004 04:01:45 GMT

pretty gangster weekend.

my mom is fucking PISSED off at me.
it great

she doesnt care anymore and i can do whatever the fuck i want cuz im "IN CHARGE"

my life has never been better.

hung out with sarah and taryn. yep yep yep.

foam party was alright.
danced with taryn cuz shes sexiii.

met 3 totally awesome guys.
new loves of my life and my new mode of transportation.

drinkings my life.
vodka's my new best friend.

dudddee.
i wanna chill out with people.
my life tends to be boring at times.
call me.
917-7128

latezzz

TAKE-OUT FOR LYPHE YO.

Wed, 15 Sep 2004 02:01:10 GMT

ok.to end all the drama in my last post.

i have the most AMAZING friends a girl could ever ask for.
i guess i was in denial.
i mean, i dont think i have ever had friends who have made me feel the way i do now.
i really do and truly LOVE each and every person that commented on my last post.
you really made me realize what great people i have in my life.

i have the most AMAZING best friend ever!!!
i know tha lately we've been through some shit.
but i love the fact that we've talked it out and that we are on good terms.<333
i missed you soo much and im glad things are slowly coming back to the way they used to be.
i love every second im with you.
every moment were together seems like nothing in the world could ever ruin it.
i dont think ive ever loved someone as much as i love you.
and im sorri for EVER doing anything to hurt you in anyway shape or form.
dudddee.i love you.
XL TIT CREW FOR LYPHE YO.

ok. and also.
my next 4 most amazing friends a girl could ever ask for.
SARAH SMITH, MIKAELA MAYER, TARYN BROUSSARD,SARAH HERNANDEZ, AND MARISA BELINFANTE.
you're my true home girlz.
i could never replace you EVER.
we own.cuz were totally gangster like that.<33333

us 7 bitches are gonna rule the world
we're tight like that.
everyone else?

you're just jealous....

Tue, 14 Sep 2004 00:42:04 GMT

ok..
truthfully adn honestly i am a very unhappy person right now.
im jstu like everyone else but whatever.
im venting. deal with it.

ok. for the record i wanna know now about anyone that doesnt like me.
i want to know who my real friends are and whos not.
if you ahve a fuckign problem with me tell me.
cuz i dont want to fuckign sit here adn think your my friend when you're really not.
dont be fake with me.
dont play these bull shit games.
i just want to know who my real friends are.
adn at this current moment im ditching everyone aroudn me.
i think its best for me until i get my fucking life back into order.
maybe best for everyone else.

so to everyone.
im sorri of ive been a bitch lately.
i jsut cant control how i feel.
and im sorri for anyone that i used to be close with and ive almost completely forgot about. or dont really acknowledge anymore.
ive lost some of my true friends adn maybe have replaced them with someone fake.
whatever. im unhappy. i need to deal with it.
dont want to deal with any of you.
sorri for the people that matter and who actually love me.
i love you guys too.
see you when im ready.